My head seems to be so full nowadays!! I seem to be living in a limbo, with my thoughts touching on everything in a haphazard way!! Confusion seems to be the order of the day and I seem to be walking around in a daze too!!
What has brought on all this turmoil?? To be quite honest, I have no idea!! I suppose it's just one of 'those days' where I find myself thinking about life in general. Where I'm heading, what are my goals and what am I doing to achieve them?? These are the thoughts running through my mind recently. Could this be the reason for my confusion?? Am I doing what's needed to make progress?? On closer examination I have achieved many things but then why do I feel so unfulfilled and disorientated??
Yesterday I found myself dawdling around the house and although I had a birthday cake to finish for a 3 year old, I took my own time getting it done!! I normally take an hour to finish the decoration and so forth but it took me 2 hours to finish!! When I had finished the cake, I sat in the sun reading a book, which allowed my brain to focus on one task. But not for long though, my spirit felt uneasy so I put the book down and did something else.
I don't like feeling this way, it's such an out of control mode it scares me to bits!! God help me, I need to find some peace soon!!