Wednesday, May 27, 2009

A restless soul.....


means that something is amiss, right??

For the past few months I have found it very hard to concentrate when making my prayers. At first I hadn't realized what was happening until recently, when I found myself doubting the amount of raka-aats I had performed. I was so disorientated, it was scary!! My thoughts were elsewhere!! 

Being one to fast on a Monday & Thursday whenever I was able to, was also something I had prided myself in. How did this habit fall on the wayside?? I know that I am human and prone to mistakes & weaknesses but the state I find myself in lately has me questioning my actions as a believer. Surely Allah is most Merciful, most Forgiving!! 

I couldn't quite put my finger on the cause of my disorientation. Sometimes we find ourselves in a situation where we do things out of habit. Instead of trying to get out of the rut, we continue because it feels comfortable. We fear the consequences if we change it, not knowing that with change comes the opportunity to better yourself. 

I hope that I get the chance to redeem myself fully, as our time on this earth is very short & we should definitely use it wisely Insha-Allah Ameen!! 

Oh Allah, please keep me steadfast in my attempts to gain Your favour & bountiful blessings. I have so much to be grateful for!! 


4 comments:

Ida Hariati Hashim said...

Salam Shahieda,

Firstly, I would like to state here that you have such good taste in music..:) I love your selection especially W. Houston's "Miracle" and Alanis M's "Head over Heals"..:)

Secondly, I would like to admit here that I too have been guilty of having my mind to stray away during Solat..:( God please give us the strength to keep our focus when we are prostrating before Him.

I want to improve myself too, I wish to fast more regularly like you. Perhaps, all these unnecessary and foolish feelings that I am having are rooted to my lack of emphasis on the spiritual aspect on my life.

You stay easy, sis..Allah is with you..:)

Saya... said...

Askm,

Dear Sis, came across your blog via other blogs...just to share with you (its my battle too..). The closer we try to get to Allah, the most our staunchest enemy tries to get to us. We must beware of this unseen enemy which plants thoughts, distracts us and tries to keep us away from Allah by all ways and means.

Please read this:

Was-Was/Whispers.

Raden Galoh said...

Salam sis,

I'm also like you dear sister... the temptations are strong, at times the naughty voices are louder and making me so unfocused in my solat too... but Allah knows we are trying our best to perform the good deeds... as long as we istiqomah in our duties, insyaAllah we can combat the satanic temptations with stronger imaan... Allah is the Most Loving and Merciful dear...

heard you are coming to KL? must give me a tinker... we must meet, insyaAllah.

hugs.

Shahieda said...

Wasalaams Ida,

Thank you dear!! Most of the songs on my playlist has some sort of sentimental value to me. I'm a huge Whitney Houston fan, always have been. When I listen to "Miracle" I get goosebumps, hehehe!!

Fasting helps me in many ways dear. It keeps me sane, being a single mom is very difficult in this day & age!! But in the same breath, my kids are the ones who keep me grounded.

Wa-Alaykumsalaams Saya,

Thank you for visiting my blog, it is much appreciated!!

You're right on the button sis, there's always going to be something that's going to distract us from the right path.

May Allah give us the strength to remain steadfast, Ameen!! Thank you for the link.

Wasalaams Raden,

Sis, your faith is so very strong Masha-Allah. I am really awestruck by your acceptance, Alghumdulillah!!

Yes those voices are very loud at times, as Allah mentions them in Surah-An-Naas. But I will fight very hard not to listen.

I cannot wait to visit your beautiful country Insha-Allah!! I am so grateful for the many acquaitances I have made there, via internet, that is!! We will surely meet up!!